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Sonnet #92

2011-02-08T12:40:00.000-08:00

When the snow falls,

I’ll write you a letter.

When the party stalls,

it’ll remind you of when things were better.

There will be a Hendrix quote,

and I’ll draw a sun in the top left hand corner.

I’ll allude to the time when we danced next to that moat,

and got our picture taken by that foreigner.

I’ll tuck that picture in the envelope,

maybe you’ll look at it and it’ll make you smile.

Like I do when I think about how you taught me to use a microscope,

and when we started copying each others style.

If this letter reaches you, please, reply.

So that I can be aware that you exist. I’ll be waiting for you in the sky.

2011-02-01T12:50:00.001-08:00

Lonely man syndrome

Trying to make a house into a home
When I'm meant to be alone.
Begging for affection
Searching for a connection
Middle of the night I have reply anxiety,
waiting on your text
drowning in society.
Trying to juggle a life trapped in hell
revered in piety.
So much on my plate but I feel like I'm dieting.
So much on my shoulders
I'm 6 degrees colder
I can't find a sweater to make me all better.
It's seems that retail and females are the solution
but they can't clear the smoke or clean up all the pollution.
Im fighting and I'm trying to go through life without a frown
yet it seems what holds me up is the same thing knocking me down.
Where do I go who do I speak to who has advice.
Every time I bake a cake everybody wants a slice.
Dreaming wide awake and when I doze off
I jump up in the middle of the night
So my nights become my day
The days are cloudy and grey.
Everybody wants an answer but I don't know what to say.
One day I'll come alive
and the dreams that haunt my mind
Will be stories that will survives for decades and ages
And never be extinct.
I feel like I'm missing a scene Everytime i blink.

2011-02-01T12:47:00.004-08:00

Girls flirt left and right

in my search for the right one.
All I discover is the wrong, though the wrong seems right,
because she's right when she's wrong.
Eventually I let her go, then come to find out she was right all along.
Now it's too late,
if I leave it up to fate
Tomorrow she'll be on a date
6 months in with a mate
who she's thinks is great although she knows he's not for her
she'll settle rather than wait.
Then the wrong will seem right until it goes wrong
and those days that were bright will be dim and grim
Now she's stuck with him because she can't walk away
Almost 2 years now so she figures she'll stay.
So nobody wins because the guy who loves her isn't getting 100 percent.
He'll end up heart broken
Habitually poking any chick with a hole
as big as the one in his chest.
And she'll be chasing me
While I'm on a quest
with the one I love to be together forever.
However. We're all chasing what we once had because we had a sample but didn't put it in the bag.
Now everybody's sad
the worlds gone mad.
I'm standing here appalled because I saw it unravel and watched everybody fall when I could've saved us all.

2011-02-01T12:47:00.003-08:00

You want what you can't have.

I want what I want.
You touch but you can't grab.
I hate that you don't.
I embraced it at first
but now it's the worst because you can't find a beverage to quench your thirst.
As for me, I'm not thirsty.

2011-02-01T12:47:00.001-08:00

If I had to read all of the text with my name over top that goes unread,

I'd write a book with ink in red,
so much love goes over my head.
I presume it's karma because I do the same so I understand you're not to blame.
I take accountability for everything that happens in my life
Because it's my life.

Sonnet #91

2011-02-01T12:40:00.000-08:00

These days I have more missed calls than answered.

68 unread text,
and appointments get canceled.
Who's next?
I hurt the people that I love
I can't word how I feel
I'm shedding tears in the tub,
life is harder than ever, for real.
Chugging beers,
wiping tears off my iPhone screen.
Things I write are consolation for my fears.
I can't stand without a lean
I don't know if it's a dream.
Am I acting? Well, scene.

2011-02-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

I am the broken chord on the black guitar that will never stop playing.
I am the vocal chord of the poor young girls heart that would never stop singing.
Playing sweet nothings until my doom.
The lonely black sheep lost in the corner of the room.
The room is full of people smiling through their chest.
I'm smiling too, but through the emptiness I digest.
I am the tear that just won't come out.
I am the fear your mommy warned you about.
I am the heart that never skips a beat.
I am the brain that always wants a peek.
I am the faucet that will never cease to leak.
I am the other half you never got to meet.
I am the story you always hear but never got to read.
I am the soul of the elder who cries.
My glasses reflect so that you can't indulge into my eyes.
I am that yawn that puts you to sleep.
I am the memories to whom you regret you said goodbye.

Sonnet #90

2011-02-01T12:38:00.001-08:00

You say I can't love you no matter what
I don't show it.
Every time I come I leave cuts
and I know it.
I can't fight what I don't know.
Everyday I learn.
When I leave i tend to grow.
This may burn
but I have to give you all I can
If I don't try
I can't be a man
Let me die.
As long as I know my love was forreal
That's a life for that mankind should guild

2011-02-01T11:43:00.000-08:00

White flakes are falling,

the sky is foggy.

The lakes I gaze into are freezing and hardening.

Everybody's coupled, I'm left to freeze with the lakes

I stiffen and drift into an eerie state.

Everything that lived inside during the warm and balmy summer,

has taken a dive into eternal slumber.

The breeze blows, but it's frigid

and unforgiving. No leaves to fly,

it's a difficult time for the living.

Feeling claustrophobic under my covers.

This is a season like no other.

2011-02-01T11:25:00.000-08:00

A world spinning,

society sinning,

people like me just can't stop grinning.

She...

2011-01-27T23:10:00.001-08:00

It's just not fair,

how a stroke of her hair,

can leave me impaired.

I'd run a thousand miles

If I knew that at the finish line

I'd witness the gift of her smile.

I've raced her race,

left me displaced,

sampling a bitter taste.

She's moved on,

and I'm a good friend,

with a shoulder to lend,

for every tear she sheds.

For I know that when her heart is aching,

so is mines,

she's my eternal valentine.

2010-12-30T16:00:00.000-08:00

I awake to a phone call saying,

I'm outside. I get up, cover my chest with my vest.

Slip on my shoes and head home to my nest.

It feels good to see the sun is shining, and the birds are whining.

I take a shower and get dressed,

I've seen better days but I'll make this the best.

Another phone call I answer with haste,

a friend of mines with some drugs to waste.

I rush to his house, we fill his bathroom with smoke,

order some food, pick it up and hit the rode.

Downtown we go, I had to buy some shades.

Cover my eyes, the human razor blades.

Go to Starbucks indulge in a Mocha,

time to take a cold walk back to the car.

On the way there I saw a girl I was supposed to

have lunch with but she stood me up.

She smiles and says hey as she stares me down and looks me up.

She wanted to say more but the shame was too much.

Back home to the abyss I head,

sitting in the dark with my shades on because my eyes are so red,

and low. To the moon I'll go, hopefully there's no one there I know.

Crack open a Coors Light and turn up Ready to Die,

I'm feeling like a star and I don't know why.

No matter where I go it's bright, cover your eyes.

And I'm shooting through your life, and I'm shooting through your sky.

Let me be your supernova.

Sonnet #89

2010-12-28T12:31:00.000-08:00

Autumn nights her hair blowing in the wind.

Laying on the grass by the lake.

I don't know when I'll feel this again,

Loneliness is my most common mate.

Cuddled on the couch talking to the TV,

voices bombarding my head.

The eyes stare the voices glare but they aren't talking to me.

I'm imagining she's in my bed.

The pillows never seem to hug back.

iTunes playlist aren't quite my forte of conversation

I'd rather a guitar solo on a broken track,

than to admit I'm taking a lonely vacation.

I'm going hoping that when I reappear

my sweet darling lonely will disappear.

2010-12-22T21:12:00.000-08:00

Cudos to the guy who walks through hell with a smile.

I must be celibate because I don’t give a fuck.

I never found life worth while.

People ask me, “what’s today?” I respond, just another day to me.

That’s my reality.

I don’t care to breath you’re stupid air.

I’m aware that, life’s not fair.

So I drink until i get obscene, then I smoke until I get serene.

Now it feels like a dream.

I know I’ll never wake up.

I apologize for the air I take up.

Its not my choice. I like being alive, having a voice.

But if I could not be human it would be ideal.

Shit seems surreal.

The whole appeal,

I sit I kneel. I lay I pray to see better days.

I hope I can find some dope to take me higher than the shit I smoked.

That’s my fantasy to be somewhere you cannot be.

I don’t owe you an explanation.

I’m this way because I want to be, fuck off.

Sonnet #88

2010-12-16T17:14:00.000-08:00

Make sure you keep it together

when you're falling apart.

Just think, if you withstand the bad weather

there bound to be a brand new start.

People come and go,

don't stress that.

One thing you must know,

keep you eyes forward, no setbacks.

If you do get distracted,

dial my number.

There's no better person you could've contacted,

leave nothing to wonder.

When the universe seems like nothing is fair,

turn to me because I'll be there.

2010-12-15T21:02:00.000-08:00

What a night for a drink,

you know I'm a drinking machine.

Shot after shot until I can't stop my lean.

Numb the stress numb the pain that life brings.

And I'll meet you at the peek where the choir sings.

2010-12-14T22:42:00.000-08:00

The mirror is an illusion to me,

it looks real and pain free,

but I know that in reality,

this just cannot be.

Since I turned 5 years old,

I knew the world was cold,

but I was always told,

too bundle up and be bold.

I love to be where I can't be seen,

I get so high life feels like a dream,

gravity always intervenes,

I'll never forget nothing is what it seems.

Sonnet #87

2010-12-14T00:20:00.000-08:00

I'd hate to be a bother,

but can you show you care?

You're making this harder,

we could almost be there.

Is it the scars that hasn't healed

that makes you hesitate?

I'm no murderer but I'd kill

for a simple twist of fate.

This heartbreak warfare

has us arguing with a smile.

I haven't just sat and stared

into a persons eyes in awhile.

I must admit that I am afraid of the possible outcome.

In the back of mind I keep thinking, "heartbreak cannot be out done."

2010-12-14T00:16:00.000-08:00

Who makes the rules and why do we listen?

Sonnet #86

2010-12-11T19:55:00.000-08:00

Everything is not broken,

things will get better.

The most painful words aren’t spoken,

they’re torn up and thrown away in unfinished letters.

One day I’ll grow the balls

to say what I always wanted to say.

There’s pictures forming on these empty walls,

my nights have become my day.

The moon has become my sun

as bright as dark can be.

I’m day dreaming that every girl is the one,

soon what I see will actually be what I see.

I’m covered in rain, the drops are cold.

A wise man told me love is bold.

Sonnet #85

2010-12-11T19:35:00.000-08:00

I long to hear your voice,
I long to see your face.
You would be mines if it were my choice,
but to be patient would be in better taste.
If I could jump through this screen,
I'd hold you near and fall asleep.
I know there the grass is green,
and the water is deep,
so I'll wait awhile before I take that dive.
The last time I took a swim,
it was like traveling up The Nile.
But you're where I"m going, that's where I've been.
It's hard but I'm willing to take a chance,
I know that the past can only be enhanced.

Sonnet #84

2010-11-30T12:32:00.001-08:00

2010-11-30T12:28:00.000-08:00

Sonnet #83

2010-10-31T15:48:00.000-07:00

I want to touch all the wrong places

in the right way.

I see all the wrong faces

on the right days.

It;s the curse of being lost

in a new world order.

If you're willing to pay what it cost

you can cross the border.

Success is at your finger tips,

you just have to be willing to grab it.

Understand what you're grabbing is hit or miss,

y'all can have it.

I just want the satisfaction of a smile

and life would have been worth my while.

Sonnet #82

2010-10-31T15:44:00.000-07:00

Slow down everyone
you're moving to fast.
Life is a lonely one
let's live today like it's our last.
Today we're young and frugal
tomorrow we're old and regretful.
Yesterday I was useful
now I'm so forgetful.
We become what we hate
grasp the passing opportunity.
Never hesitate
life is about unity.
Everyday take a risk,

live out your bucket list.

Sonnet #81

2010-10-31T15:42:00.000-07:00

I'm a simple guy.

I like 6 packs of beer

and Tuna on rye.

Sorry my dear

I'm still learning this life.

One day I'll man up

and ask you to be my wife.

Until then I'll give you love rough

and keep you laughing.

Hopefully that will keep you happy,

you're beauty is baffling.

Inside and out, ok I won't get sappy.

Just wait for me on the other side

and we will die together like Bonnie and Clyde.

Sonnet #80

2010-10-31T15:40:00.000-07:00

Laying next to your motionless body.
Wide awake,
Why is my life so knotty.
What will it take.
I dreamt that I was all alone.
No surprise.
It's made up in my chromosomes.
I realize.
It has nothing to do with you people.
It is me.
I'll probably never get to reach you.
Now I see.
I can only live for the moments that make me smile.
I pray that they last longer than a little while.

Sonnet #79

2010-10-31T15:38:00.001-07:00

When the winter comes

and the sun goes dim.

I'll be all on my lonesome

thinking grim.

Wishing that I would have kept you around

for these moments.

I'm the king of selfish. I wear the crown,

at least I own it.

I should get credit

for being honest.

No complaints I get it

It's not worthy of a bonus.

I'll find my place here and be content

just know that my presence isn't for rent.

Sonnet #78

2010-10-31T15:21:00.000-07:00

Strangers tell me I have a beautiful soul,

maybe it's the alcohol

because all my friends say I'm an asshole.

Maybe I'm not what I thought after all

the best advice I have,

I can't quite word it

you gave me all you had

when I probably didn't deserve it.

I'm a faulty man

I admit all my mistakes.

I don't try as hard as I can

and I hide all of my aches.

I cry a lot but none of it exits my eyes,

I can honestly say I'm waiting for life's surprise.

Sonnet #77

2010-10-31T15:07:00.000-07:00

These days my mind is all over the place,

the rare moments I'm sober

tears stroll down my face.

I get the feeling that it's almost over,

I'm living on a prayer

because my Auntie told me talk to Jesus.

Love is rare

and the stars aren't aligned to please us.

My family say I'm never around

the girls that love me want to hate me.

They never know when I'm in town

keep telling me "you ain't shit lately."

The eyes in the mirror are full of deceit

but like you, at the end of the day I lay down and go to sleep.

Sonnet #76

2010-10-18T09:29:00.001-07:00

I don't have much

but what I have is yours.

Cherish my touch

open your pores.

Let me in

hold my hand.

Caress my skin

call me your man.

I don't know where I'm going

but come with me.

All I have is my poems,

read with glee.

They may be corny but they're true,

and most of them are inspired by you.

Nostalgia.

2010-10-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

I wish I could set sail to the sky

and fly back to the times when you and I

were all smiles an R&B.

Back before you knew you and I knew me.

Time broke us up,

now I'm nostalgic as fuck.

I don't ask for much

just the feeling of your touch.

Not the present one,

the one from 07'

when love overwhelmed us.

Sitting in you basement for hours

doing nothing, content with each other.

Burst your cherry back before we wore Sperrys

only thing we carried was our hearts.

We were married by a bond that was strong

teenage love I thought would never go wrong.

Little did I know

the credits to the show

were closer than I thought

and every time we fought

was for nothing at all.

I think back but I can't get pass

all the bickering and screams

and tears, our broken dreams

were shattered. Now our love is scattered

over a guitar and drum.

This is not a drill call 911.

Sonnet #75

2010-10-14T21:10:00.000-07:00

My phone just rang,

twas' an unknown number.

That number used to mean everything,

used to hold it in my slumber.

Now when we talk

awkward silence intrudes.

I remember the spark

I saw when I first met you.

We kissed on the first night

made love soon after.

My friends were right

I should have walked past ya.

I took a chance, never will I say it wasn't worth it.

We could've been a fairy tale, but nothing perfect.

Memory.

2010-10-14T02:49:00.000-07:00

They always say you're too young.

When you die, you're gone.

Never wait to do something that you want,

it's your life you only die once.

Everybody says take your time,

but what happens when time takes you?

Don't waste time. Time doesnt care,

time doesn't rhyme.

Yours will be up at the drop of a dime.

After that we dont know.

We grow and then we go.

This chance could be your last

Don't let a moment pass.

Don't think about death.

Just live fast.

Don't get caught up in one thing.

The next will be here before shed a tear.

Keep a smile on, that's your best accessory.

Leave your best impression on them and me,

because tomorrow you could be a memory.

Sonnet #74

2010-10-10T22:01:00.000-07:00

I only feel regret

when I see you without me.

I wish I would have told you that secret

then you wouldn't have had to leave.

A single tear drops

when I see a picture of you.

My world stops

when I think of the heart that I bruised.

I read our old text,

even though I told you I deleted your number.

It's there, along with the bitterness I detect.

I guess I'm left to wonder,

what we could've been,

because my mind wasn't where it should've been.

Sonnet #73

2010-10-10T21:42:00.000-07:00

It's the first day of Autumn

and I can't seem to crack a grin.

The brightest days are so solemn,

I just say it's karma for my sin.

I remember the person I was before,

I see the beast that I am now.

I want to find a comfy room and lock the door

and work on myself starting with the ground.

Build a better me,

oil up my old parts.

Wake up with moments of glee.

Find out where the path to the pursuit of happiness starts.

We're put on this Earth to screw up and learn,

Right now my day's are dark but soon candles shall burn.

Sonnet #72

2010-10-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

I awake from a day of slumber

praying that my night will be like the last.

Behind the smile is a brain that wonders

will I ever be as happy as I was in the past.

Yearning for the love that I felt in 2007,

the saddest thing about life is that time goes on.

If, when I get to Heaven,

I'll cry at the moments I look down upon.

I want to live life,

bring smiles to your face.

Hopefully I never bring spite,

and if I do those moments will be erased.

Who will create a world where nobody changes?

I know we can't change the world, but let's rearrange it.

The Proud Me

2010-10-10T21:03:00.000-07:00

I'm watching the world fall,

everybody's concerned with the secrets held in the walls.

I'm worried with solace,

imaging my pillows are hugging back.

Lately my dreams are coming true

the next day. I'm wishing that I dreamed

of fame and fortune.

Instead my heads filled

pain and torture.

Me going insane

sitting in a window pane.

I want to jump but my pride won't allow me.

The drugs of the world has me drowsy,

I'm searching for that lost part,

the proud me.

Rainy Day.

2010-04-25T20:45:00.000-07:00

I'm falling and I love the feeling
nothings healing this pain.
It rains long, hard and cold
nights I feel like I'm not me,
I lose control of my soul.
It runs, and sings songs I don't know.
Everywhere I go I hope to grow
but my soul is so old I don't know what I know.
Until it happens then it's Dejavu.
You were in my dreams now who are you?
Where'd you come from, where have you been?
And why'd you come into my life again?
Where are you going, am I going with?

Sonnet #71

2010-02-04T11:33:00.001-08:00

My apologies to the broken hearts
mistakes are signs of purity.
I spend many nights in the dark
asking for forgiveness, morally.
I've shot love down,
I've picked love up,
I've fought many rounds
never wanting to give it up.
I've denied fate
I closed doors of opportunity.
I've had my cake
and licked enough icing for you and me.
Don't follow my footsteps,
learn from my mishaps.

Talamak

2010-02-01T22:12:00.000-08:00

When can we get together again? nevermind I've lost you.
How can I tell if I love you anymore? nevermind, I know I do.

Paramore-Use Somebody

2010-01-31T11:06:00.000-08:00

I Got Your Back Love!

2010-01-31T11:04:00.000-08:00

2010-01-29T09:50:00.001-08:00

Mr. Brown

Nevermind.

2010-01-27T14:12:00.000-08:00

I call you closer to my arms,
nevermind you'll only do me harm.
When will you be worth my time,
nevermind stand in line.
I just want to cuddle and sing my songs,
nevermind move along.
When will you be what I thought,
nevermind we're apart.
When will you see I love you,
nevermind I don't love you.

Roses

2010-01-17T22:58:00.000-08:00

Walk around the park west,
laughing after dark,
look what we became,
a big fire from a spark,
who would've thought
that we couldn't tame,
that micro flame.
Now look at me,
trying to pick your brain,
now we're in love
hugging and kissing.
Even holding hands,
even told my best friend that I would be a man,
the best that I could be,
asked him to help me
said keep the girls away,
I'm not going to cheat,
kiss you on the forehead
and bring you roses,
but just like those roses,
we died.

Young Girl.

2009-12-31T11:43:00.000-08:00

Young girl, old world,

doomed from the get go,

but she'll never let go.

Trapped in a sphere

of false hope.

She lost everything

yet never took time to cope.

She turns her back

and try's to hide her face

from the facts.

But she can't hide from the truth,

when life comes chasing

you can only run but so far.

But she's a star,

she jumped, she flew,

and now she's witnessing the world anew.

Me or Me?

2009-12-27T14:53:00.000-08:00

If I was someone else,

if I wasn't me,

who would I be?

Could it be,

that I'm really not me?

But all of this time,

who have I been?

Since this life began,

all I can remember is him.

The person that I think I am.

Or is he just who I want to be.

But if I'm not me,

than who could I be?

The 1

2009-12-27T14:44:00.001-08:00

I was tired of the cold,
it was lonely and dreary.
But now that the sun has showed
My face has gotten teary.
You said you'd be there
The last time I remember.
Tell the sun to beware
Because come December
We're climbing the ladder to the sun
No matter how hard it gets
Now we'll see if you're the one.

Mr. Brown

There's nothing wrong with me

2009-12-27T14:42:00.001-08:00

There's nothing wrong with me
Lord you made me perfect as can be
Still my life feels incomplete
I can't find Mrs L-o-v-e
Everyone I love is dead and gone
And there is nobody home.
Some nights I cry alone
Because I'm always on my own
I try to hide this fact
But it's hard to keep my mind intact
I think im going insane
I'm sick and tired of all these games
Regardless of the names
All these girls seem the same
Is there something I don't see
Possibly it could be me
Maybe I'm not cut out for this
somebody told me love is bliss
Cupid takes shots but he'll always miss
I got cut by her golden lips
I chased her down for months
is this really what I want
It felt good at first
But good got worst
It's like i'm here alone
Sitting on my throne still alone
And I don't like it, i don't wanna give up
The sky gets dim before it gets lit up
Maybe I should just toughen up
Or maybe I shouldn't give a fuck

Is it Possible?

2009-12-27T14:32:00.001-08:00

How do u fix a live undone
How do glue back the pieces that got broken
Now I question if she's the one
Now I forget the things that I was hoping
I refuse to be hurt
I won't let it happen
It hurts to smirk
And I cry while I'm napping
I feel that I'm a prisoner in the rain of love.

Goodbye

2009-12-27T14:31:00.001-08:00

GOODBYE
This is pain
that I cannot explain
You took my trust
and turned it to dust
You took my love
Put on your gloves
And murdered it
As if it never was
You took my commitment
And shat on it
You took my pride
You blatenly lied
All I gave you
All the fighting I did
For something as simple as your time
And you took that and gave it to him
As I begged, as I pleaded
As we fought, things got heated
I never thought that this was why
But I guess you altogether
Turned out to be a lie
U took my faith in us
And traded it in for lust
And now my love I must
Say goodbye

Warm Winter

2009-12-27T14:20:00.000-08:00

Sunshine. Moonlight,

Footsteps. Bickering.

Sirens. Horns.

Guitars strumming. Baby's crying.

Loud coughs. Glass shattering.

Heavy sneezing. God Bless You.

These are the sounds of my Warm Winter.

Sonnet #70

2009-12-23T00:10:00.000-08:00

You are my dawn,

after a long dusk.

talking until we yawn,

we have to say so much.

You were always there

yet so far away,

games of truth or dare

it started out as play.

Yet as we talked more

our hearts became aroused.

Now it's you I adore

quite as a mouse,

you snuck into my heart unconsciously,

let's peak into the future, how far can you see?

It's all for the best, I hope.

2009-11-22T20:15:00.000-08:00

I'll adjust,

but I must,

say to you, I'm hurt.

I fought for us,

I sacrificed,

and you don't want to put in the work.

We barely fuck,

we barely touch,

you say you don't want us to be about that.

I gave enough,

I gave too much,

I think it's time for me to fall back.

It hurts me,

more than it hurts you

for me to hurt you.

But the more I try,

the more I cry,

but it's all for the best, I hope.

I won't cry no more,

my eyelids are sore,

I can't cry no more,

I said I won't cry no more,

but when it rain it pours,

I guess I was lying, I'm crying.

Love is Just Love

2009-11-22T20:06:00.001-08:00

A dream is a dream,
a hug is a hug,
a kiss is a kiss,
and love is just love.

A heart is a heart,
a touch is a touch,
together is apart
nothing matters much.

This world is hell,
peace makers fight,
only drugs sell,
we can't see with perfect sight

Nothing's gonna change my mind,
the sun fondles the moon,
I'm standing in line,
it'll all end soon.

Somebody is no one,
nothing matters,
everybody is someone,
we're dinner on a platter.

Life is death,
boys love girls,
I hold my breath,
nothing's gonna change my world.

Sonnet #69

2009-11-18T08:15:00.000-08:00

Love, I hope we get old

I hope we can find away to get through it all.

I hope we can find away to make it through the cold.

To get up we must fall.

It's going to hurt,

this is a guarantee.

I'm willing to wear this bloody shirt

if it results in you and me.

The sun is shining

but to me it looks dim.

This hill we're climbing

is steep and grim,

My love our story may not be a fairytale,

but in the end we will prevail!

Reign of Love by Coldplay, I think they write the best love songs by far!

2009-11-18T08:11:00.000-08:00

Reign of love

I can’t let go
To the sea I offer
This heavy load

Locusts will
Lift me up
I’m just a prisoner
In a reign of love

Locusts will
Let us stop
I wish I’d spoken
To the reign of love

Reign of love
By the church, we’re waiting
Reign of love
My knees go praying

How I wish
I’d spoken up
Or we’d be carried
In the reign of love

Promise

2009-11-17T18:26:00.000-08:00

It seems like it was yesterday,

when all my pain went away,

and you were there to save the day,

you knew all the right things to say.

And then we fell in love,

we just couldn't get enough,

our bodies making music when they rubbed,

endless kisses and hugs.

And then we started falling apart,

I promised you I wouldn't break your heart,

but you never promised the same,

and now I'm feeling the pain.

I told you I wouldn't let you go,

I'll fight for you until the moon don't glow,

I'll never give up on us,

no matter how we fuss.

But I need you too fight too,

I talk until my face is blue

yet it's to no avail,

so consider this the conclusion of our fairytale.

How a Heartbreaks

2009-11-17T17:47:00.000-08:00

5 words,

teary eyes,

a loose lip,

realization,

short breaths,

mind wonders,

there’s nothing left….

A heart is broken

Sonnet #68

2009-11-17T17:41:00.000-08:00

The clock is ticking,

And the bell has rung.

I hear it clicking,

The fat lady has sung.

I gave you my all,

You gave me a little

Now I have to heal this scar

I’m no longer the monkey in the middle

I let you play me,

Thinking you’d come around.

You’re a swell lady

But you aren’t ready for this right now

I can’t say I’ll wait for you to climb this hill,

What I can say is if it’s meant to be, it will.

Love is Just Complicated by Tupac Shakur.

2009-09-16T07:56:00.000-07:00

you ask me to communicate

what it is I feel within

I search for words to assist

But I find none to help me begin

I guess love is just complicated

Love

just

complicated.

I thought I knew my hearts desire

I thought I quenched my burning fire

I thought I wanted "a"

but "a" was too mixed up with "b"

Then "c" made me more confused

So "a" turned off me and "b" feels

better "c" is upset and lonely

and me, I think love is just complicated

Love

just

complicated.

Make up...

2009-09-11T11:02:00.000-07:00

I know right now I'm missing you,

but soon I'll be kissing you.

Because the longer that your gone,

the more we get it on,

when you get back.

Did you get that

text that, I sent?

Because I didn't get a reply,

I know that we fought

before you left

but now I just want to make up,

you can keep on your make up,

I just want to eat my cupcake up.

I'm starving, I'm thirsty,

you're the only one who's worthy

so come get your trophy.

Win it, spin it, hoist it,

oh boy it's, the moistest.

I'm sorry, just come back,

I miss you and I mean that...

Epiphany

2009-09-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

I was wrong! All of this time I have been praising and idolizing love. But now I see that love is not the most attainable entity that we should respect and enjoy. It's TRUST, to be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved. And I am now seeing this... Peace love and trust my fellow Martians.

Get in line..

2009-09-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

Everybody's anxious....

everybody wants it,

people standing in line

to lose their minds.............

Sonnet #67

2009-09-04T07:12:00.001-07:00

It's seems that I live

a dream within a dream.

All that I give

is never redeemed.

The tears that I cry

the sacrifices I make,

the things that buy

the shit that I take.

I feel that fate

will strip us apart.

Your the perfect mate

for my heart.

But karma is real and it's coming for me,

because everything I did, you're doing to me.

Sonnet #66

2009-09-02T20:31:00.000-07:00

When I see you

I see everything that I once longed for.

This is true,

I've never wanted someone so much before.

But now that I have acquired

the love

that I once admired

the dove's

envy, and Cupid is taking lessons.

I'm no where near pious

but I know that this is a blessing.

And the Heavens? They riot

because they know they shouldn't have granted

a love so enchanted.

Sonnet #71

2009-08-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

I used to wish

that my dreams were reality.

I used to kiss

the air and create imaginary fallacies

Wishing that you and I

could be, we.

Now I understand why

we couldn't be.

But I'm too deep in

to want to swim out.

Too much work put in,

to confront the doubts.

A wise man would've asked from help from above,

a wise man wouldn't have loved.

Fav Poets on Def Poetry Jam(I used to UberLove this show!)

2009-08-12T09:47:00.000-07:00

The Mourning

2009-08-06T15:32:00.000-07:00

The moon seems so close,
and the stars are on there post,
and most vitally, you're next me.

The birds are chirping,
the night owls are working,
and still, I'm happy as can be.

The kids are dreaming,
the janitors are cleaning,
the cycle of life is in effect.

The babies are crying,
the planes are flying,
the families are in contact.

The college kids are drinking,
Titanic ships are sinking,
the parents are mourning.

The sun is coming out,
we're one day into a drought,
I hold back tears as I aproach another morning.

What A World...

2009-08-06T15:24:00.003-07:00

Cloudy skies, Too many squirrels, Colourful leaves falling.
Last goodbyes, fallen curls, and thirsty ladies calling.

Shortened lives, liquor stores, and broken ambitions.
Kids teary eyed, unlocked doors, and wasted tuition.

Phony laughs, wasted time, and damp pillow cases.
Overcast, crazy crimes, and T9 smiley faces.

In a world full of chaos and infinite lies
I roll over wipe my face and look into your eyes.
You're always there in times of dispair and I know you'll always be.
I love you, love you, love you, and I know that you love me.

Jill & Kevin's Big Day!

2009-08-06T15:08:00.000-07:00

I Was tooooo excited when I saw this lol

2009-07-27T15:27:00.001-07:00

Lonely Lane..

2009-07-19T22:00:00.001-07:00

Some people really are destined to be alone! Born that way and will die that way.... I think I'm one of those people deep down inside... Nothing or no one can stop it, it's my final destination.. LONELY LANE!

Sonnet #64

2009-07-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

Though I believe in us

I still need me.

That's why when we fuss

I retreat.

One thing I want to prevent

is tears on my end,

and to me you represent

tears that I tend

to look away from

because you are my truth.

Look at the sun

and how it shines on you.

I pray that love will be our paste

and that this isn't another chance gone to waste.

Sonnet #64

2009-06-15T21:53:00.000-07:00

Let's kiss

under the stars.

Let's reminisce.

Let's hold each other until tomorrow.

Let's eat dinner and talk.

Let's eat each other for desert.

Let's get lost together during long walks,

let's laugh at each other as we burp.

Let's fall asleep on the phone.

Let's celebrate everyday that we're together.

Let's rush to each other whenever we're alone.

Let's comfort one another during the bad weather.

Let's hold hands and dance to no music,

let's capture love and abuse it!

MGMT-We Care(This band has so many anthems!)

2009-06-12T14:55:00.000-07:00

OMG This is what Chris Martin is so incredible!!

2009-06-12T14:50:00.001-07:00

Sonnet #63

2009-06-12T14:22:00.000-07:00

I'll follow you and make a heaven out of hell,

and I'll die by your hand

which I love so well.

I do what I can,

but I should probably do more.

Love has no limits,

it reminds me of a shore

the way it commits

and then stops

for no reason at all.

There's no barrier,

there's no wall,

not even a signal carrier.

Let's break the rules of the shore

and may our love live on forever more....

I'm Learning!!!

2009-06-11T02:08:00.001-07:00

Welcome Back......

2009-06-11T02:01:00.000-07:00

Okay my fellow martians, let me start this post off by saying I am absolutely sorry for not being as dedicated to the blog as I used to be! I've been going through some personal things that I can't say I want to make public business and since I don't I'd rather not even speak on it... that being said I am definitely back!!!

A mind of a martian nvr stops thinking!!!!

Free Porn!!! I get off like this alllll the time! Cudos to Ms. N.i.a!

2009-06-04T18:45:00.001-07:00

MONDAY, FEBRUARY 9, 2009
ohhwee.
So it's like 11:55 in the almost AM.
Can't sleep.
Thinkin' bout, well i'll never tell you.
And surely, i'll regret this in the morning.
But sometimes you gotta do what feels good.
Hittin the keys at 11:58
by the light of the laptop is
closer than close
to a mental orgasm right now.
And god damn it feels good.
Yup, I'm havin a erotic write off.
I was a virgin to the word before this moment.
But i can no longer fight my urges.
Can't squeeze my legs tight enough at night
Can't bite my pillow hard enough.
Palms gettin wet thinkin about it.
Fingers gettin stiff with metaphors.
Ready to get off
write now
in whichever way i can.
Tonite i'm tryna a new postion.
Lying on my stomach as i type
Feeling like a diffrent type of girl.
As this unfurls.
Damn.
Every key stroke
feels so intense.
A s p a c e bar curls my toes.
Enter key.
Enter key.
Enter key.
Feels so good fcuk a spell check.
i can't use protection with this one.
It feels like a small heart attack.
In the small of my back
As the curve of my wrist
turns into the palm of my hand
the length of my fingers
as i
tap,
tap,
tap
my own keys
in my own bed.
On a sleepless night.
Shit.
And my s p a c e bar
retracts as my heart slows down.
shit.
in need
of weed now.
shit.
goodnight.
http://nianicole.blogspot.com

Dope Quote I heard from Angels & Demons

2009-05-29T05:29:00.000-07:00

"Religion is flawed because man is flawed, everyman, even me."

-Cardinal Strauss

Haiku #6

2009-05-27T20:56:00.000-07:00

On the wings of love
you and I are flying high,
if you only knew.

Haiku #5

2009-05-27T20:47:00.003-07:00

I'm in a dark place,
you have the light to guide me,
but I can't find you.

Sonnet #62

2009-05-27T20:47:00.001-07:00

I dream about you all the time,
literally.
I wish you were mines.
Figuratively,
you are my moonlight.
If loving you is wrong,
I don't wanna be right.
I'd write you a song
and sing it to the world
in dyer hopes
that you'll b my girl.
When my bcks against the ropes
I look foward to you,
nothing means as much as you do!

.... message from Shondrea McCargo

2009-05-27T20:39:00.000-07:00

... It's her on the phone textin him goodnight...
and I'm there to give him ...her good night kiss.
I know I can't have you when you leave
So I make sure to inhale your scent,
And eventually we part ways...
But you've been on my mind since....

Haiku #4

2009-05-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

When I think of you

I can't help but to get happy,

what if you were mines???

Haiku #3

2009-05-18T22:40:00.001-07:00

So much on my mind,

I can't stop thinking of you.

Do you feel the same?

Haiku #2

2009-05-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I see you

and I think you're really there

then you disappear...

Haiku #1

2009-05-15T08:53:00.001-07:00

Dear lovely winter,
as beautiful as you are,
I found someone else.

the MOLDY PEACH THEORY

2009-05-14T22:20:00.001-07:00

The Moldy Peaches Theory of Everything from SK on Vimeo.

Sonnet #34(reposted bc I'm still in this situation! smh, we all need help)

2009-05-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

If you love me, won't u let me know,
Playing a game of rush and roulette with my centerpiece.
This is your last shot, after this I must go..
And what we have will decease.
I'll bury it with honor,
like a fallen soldier.
Though I'll feel dishonored,
each time I cover it with Earth it gets colder.
The winter has never affected me so much,
I just can't seem to dress for this weather.
A soul clutched with each touch,
just to think, last week life was getting better.
So once again I plead, If you love me, let me know,
Or if you love me, let me go....

Sonnet #62

2009-05-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

I dream of you

when I'm awake

just the things you do

all your mistakes

turn me blue

you accept me for me

I can't see me nor you

being with nobody

but me and you

I get a little ashamed

when you come around

when I hear your name

maybe one day when the opportunity presents itself

I'll get up the courage to introduce myself...

Sonnet #61

2009-05-08T12:57:00.000-07:00

Lets go to war

like the savages we are.

Instead of fighting through closed doors

lets fight for the stars.

Lets fight for our love

lets fight for our dreams

lets fly with the dove's

and eat ice cream.

Lets ride bikes

lets swim with the sharks.

Lets do things we both like

and make funny remarks

Lets do things we'll never regret

and lets make memories we'll never forget!

Sonnet #60

2009-05-08T09:58:00.000-07:00

As I sip,
more thoughts of you linger.
Every chance I get,
I play your ringer.
Just the thought of you,
if even mentally.
It's something that your do,
that really gets to me.
I dream that one day
we'll fall in love like in the books
It's something that's goes way
Past your looks.
If this feeling is wrong then throw me in jail
because all I want is the love in fairy tales!

Mr. Brown

Dope Quote I heard on The Simpsons!

2009-05-01T12:58:00.000-07:00

There are two tragedies in life: one is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it."

-George Benard Shaw

Sonnet #65

2009-05-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

I was king of the world,

nobody could tell me what to do!

Every obstacle I hurled,

until I came across you.

Now it seems that I'm stuck,

in a universe with no parallel.

It was just my luck

I'm dizzy on this carousel.

I used to look over and wish you were there

telling you 'I love you, and have a good night sleep.'

Now I look over wishing you weren't there,

I guess the problems we have are the problems we'll keep.

We have a life long fight that we must win,

because if I had to choose another lover I'd choose you again.

SHOUT THIS TO THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!

2009-04-26T12:54:00.000-07:00

In a haze, a stormy haze
I’ll be round, I’ll be loving you, always
Always

Here I am and I'll take my time
Here I am and I’ll wait in line, always
Always

Sonnet #59

2009-04-26T12:49:00.001-07:00

I was tired of the cold,
it was lonely and dreary.
But now that the sun has showed
my face has gotten teary.
You said you'd be there
the last time I remember.
Tell the sun to beware
because come December
we're climbing the ladder to the sun
No matter how hard it gets
Now we'll see if your the one

my heart's still frost bit,

although the summer has arrived,

of love, I am still deprived....

Mr. Brown